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Friday, June 28, 2013

Family - It's Where You Come From

Thought about where you came from lately?  I haven't, and that bothered me.  I have nothing to be ashamed of; I come from great parents, loving parents.  It was something to live up to.  My son says I succeeded, but, you always wonder.
 
We were huggers.  Mom and dad always made sure to say they loved me, even after a scolding.  I have always hugged my kids, not sure I said I loved them enough.  Not sure I say I love my parents enough, now. 
 
Nobody is getting any younger.  My mom turned around and I was gone.  I think I made them proud with what I accomplished in life.  Then I turned around and the divorce snatched my kids away, but I made sure I saw them as much as possible.  I think they know that.  God knows they have made me proud.  I try to tell them that, and that I love them dearly.  I'm not sure I do it enough though.
 
Think about where you come from.  Turn off the computer and call them.  Tell them you love them.  Tell them how much they have meant in your life.  Don't wait to come across an old photo, by then it may too late. 
 
Don't forget where you come from.  It isn't a country, or a state, or a city.  You come from people.  Good people, I hope.  But, good or bad they are your people.  If you haven't spoken for reason, take the high road and reach out.  Never let what needs to be said go unspoken.
 
I love you, mom and dad.

Time to Blossom

 


Like a plant, from the moment the seed was put into the ground and germinates, we began to grow.  We struggled upward, each branch with multiple budding family members, each family member creating a branch of their own.  Each bud struggles to find their way, to develop and support the branch while trying not to be crowded out by surrounding plants as they search for a path to the salvation of light.

Like these struggling buds our path takes us in and out of darkness as we struggle for nourishing light of knowledge.  Sometimes the path is straight and smooth, sometimes it twists and turns with obstacles to overcome, and sometimes we get onto a side path that either detours us on our journey, or dead ends.  The light we seek is basic and old as time.  Who are we?  What are we doing here?  What is the meaning of life?  Is there a God?  All of these answers we seek in order to answer the only truly important question, "Why?"

None of these questions are easy.  If they were, our path would be short.  But, how interesting would that be?  Life, even with all the twists and turns, can give us so much pleasure in the discovery of things, the collection of knowledge to answer life's questions.  Eastern philosophy would offer that it's the hole in the wheel, what is not there, what is unseen, that makes it useful, not the axle or the wheel.  Like the wheel it is what we can't see and what we don't know that makes life interesting.  Even in death we can look forward to yet another mystery.

Do not bemoan your struggles, make the best of them, understand them, and revel in them, as they are the lessons of life which make us more than we are.  Reach upward to the light when you find it, for in its warm glow you will blossom and know the love and beauty of creation.


Editor's Note
(Re: disclaimer cum "get out of jail free" card)


Before you go getting your panties in a bunch, it is essential to understand that this is just an opinion site and, as such, can be subjected to scrutiny by anyone with a differing opinion. It doesn't make either opinion any more right or wrong than the other. An opinion, presented in this context, is a way of inciting others to think and, hopefully, to form opinions of their own, if they haven't already done so. This is also why, occasionally, I will present an "opinion" just to stir an emotional pot. Where it may sound like I agree with the statements made, I'm more interested in getting others to consider another viewpoint. 

It is my fervent hope that we keep open and active minds when reading opinions and while engaging in peaceful and constructive discussion in an arena of mutual respect concerning those opinions put forth. After over twenty years with military intelligence, I have come to believe engaging each other in this manner and in this arena is the way we will learn tolerance and respect for differing beliefs, cultures, and viewpoints.


We all fall from grace, some more often than others; it is part of being human. God's test for us is what we learn from the experience, and what we do afterward.
Pastor Tony spent 23 years with United States Air Force Intelligence as a planner, analyst, briefer, instructor, and senior manager. He spent 17 years, following his service career, working with a world renowned Institutional Review Board helping to protect the rights of human subjects in pharmaceutical research. Ordained 1n 2013 as an "interfaith" minister, he founded the Congregation for Religious Tolerance in response to intolerance shown by Christians toward peaceful Islam. As the weapon for his war on intolerance he chose the pen, to wage his "battle" in the guise of the Congregation's official online blog, The Path, of which he is both author and editor. "The Path" offers a vehicle for commentary and guidance concerning one's own personal, spiritual, path toward peace and the final destination for us all. He currently resides in Pass Christian, Mississippi, where he volunteers as lead Chaplain and Chaplain Program Liaison, at the regional medical center.

Thursday, June 27, 2013

Peeling Back the Layers - Who Are You?


Before we are born, there is this beautiful piece of property with trees and flowers, and we hope maybe some love.  We’ll call this property the “twinkle in someone’s eye” that will soon be you.  You are like a house. 
On this property they put a foundation to build you on.  Hopefully that foundation is hard and strong.  Sometimes it’s based on faith, other times it‘s based on love, yet other times in money.  Occasionally it can be any combination, but hopefully it is strong.  After you are conceived the contractors go to work building the shell of the building that will house your "self."  As your gender takes shape, the architectural style begins to coalesce as well.

When you are born and utter that first sound, the door to the house is thrown wide open in welcome to your new world.  From that point on everything that happens in your life becomes a room, or furniture, or a window.  You begin to collect the future heirlooms and garage sale items of your life.  Your attitudes and emotions become the plaster, paint and light fixtures.
If we are happy and well adjusted, the rooms are bright and colorful, neat and clean.  Other times, the rooms can be cluttered and drab.  If not cleaned up it can become a dark, scary mess, frightening not only ourselves but those around us.  If we continue to keep house this way, the shell will begin to suffer and the foundation may crack.  The property value will drop. 
Admitting there is a problem is the first step to fixing the “home”, who you are, determining the problem is the next.  Cleaning up the mess is usually a good place to start.  Make it neat and orderly again.  Most people would advise a new coat of paint, better emotions equal better attitudes.  Really?  So, we’re just going to color over the issue?  Tear down one bad wall and throw up another?  Or can we admit that maybe it’s more than just the paint, more than just skin deep.
I believe everyone should clean both house occasionally, top to bottom.  Throw out the crap we don’t use anymore and cleanup the stuff we do and put it away where it belongs.  If the paint is wrong, peel back the layers until you get to the plaster and see if it has been damaged.  If it has, fixing it may not require removing a perfectly good wall if clean, new plaster will suffice.  But, if the wall is bad, if it was thrown up in haste as protection, it may need to come down.  The only way to determine this is to peel back the paint, then the plaster, and look deeper to see if the integrity of the brick has been violated.

So it is with our own personal walls.  Some are there to partition off rooms we invite people to come see, others are there to protect what we think is valuable, yet others are for protection.  What we think is valuable and what needs protecting are the rooms in our mind we need to constantly monitor and keep clean or they will overtake us and become unmanageable.  How we paint ourselves, how we appear to other people should reflect who we truly are, and not camouflage that may trick, hurt or confuse those around us. 
Everyone should occasionally review how we look, how we come off to those around us.  Are we being honest, straight forward, open, or are putting up the wrong kind of walls and covering our feeling so those around us think everything is fine.

Peel back the layers of your paint, open up your doors and curtains, let in some light to those dark areas and ask yourself, “Who am I?”  Every morning when you get up try leaning toward the mirror and asking this question of yourself.  And, ask if you’re happy with who you are or what you've done.  If your answer is not what you’d like, make a commitment to change something in your day to make it better, or to say and do something to make someone else feel better.  What do you have to lose?  You may find something out about yourself you didn't know.
We should strive to present a constant “open house” to the world, clean and neat, with lots of refreshments and finger foods on hand.  I find these visitors to my “house” force me to take constant stock of who I am and how I feel.  They make me want to be the consummate host. 
They also help keep my doors open by providing me that which I require most…friendship, happiness, peace, and fulfillment.     

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

The Path




Today is not like yesterday.  One wouldn’t expect it to be.  Time marches on.  But yesterday was a simpler time.  Not that the goals have changed, we still want an education, job, family, success, a desire for something better.  Today is more cluttered though.  In our daily lives we deal with cell phones, tablets, desktops, laptops, cd players, dvd players, ipods, MP3s, flat screens, 3D, texting, oh my goodness!
 Along my path, and in my memories, I have a bench.  In my day this bench would have a couple of total strangers sitting on it, discussing the day’s events, feeding the squirrels or pigeons, maybe sharing a sandwich.  Today it is empty.  I can’t remember when anyone other than a homeless person has made use of a bench the old way.  Now two people would be found at opposite ends, facing opposite directions, focused on their laptops while the squirrels are left wondering where the sandwich is.
I feel sorry for folks today that don’t take the time to buy a sandwich for lunch and go to the park, to sit on the bench and meet someone new.  A quiet moment when two completely different people, strangers, invade each other’s space and learn something new or have a laugh over an anecdote.  The feeling they get when, years later, their lunchtime companion doesn’t show.  Days after that when a young woman sits next to them on the bench to explain how much their short lunches meant to the passed loved one, and how the friendship, and looking forward to the bench, kept the secret illness at bay, then they would realize how valuable one small act of interpersonal communication can be.
As we travel our path try not to forget to turn off all the clutter in your life, the importance of all these electronics is highly overplayed.  Take some time to go outside and get away from it, bring a sandwich, find a bench, and make a new friend.  The older the new friend the more important your small cordial act will be.  Most feel forgotten is the clutter of young lives.  You will be amazed at how good you will feel afterwards.
Don’t forget to feed some crust to the squirrels and pigeons!

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Tolerance: A View on Atheism

I touched on the issue of Atheism in my blog, “Life After Death?” then I read this piece by Austin Cline in About.com called, “Why Not Believe?  Reasons Why Atheists Don’t Believe in Gods.”  He was not arguing a case for or against.  He was just giving the reasons.  It seems to me that the reasoning used against believing in God, are good arguments for. 

Let us take the argument of multiple gods and religious traditions.  Who is right?  They can’t all be right, yet they can’t all be wrong.  Immediately there is admission of someone being right.  Here the argument isn’t whether God exists, but rather who to believe.  I firmly believe the question is moot.  Develop your own personal relationship with God through creative, lively, discussion and study.  Find your own path and the love and understanding you feel will be more real to you than if some pious preacher told you how to feel.  Your heart can’t be told how to love, that is inside you.  It is who you are.  To love someone else’s way is doing yourself and God a disservice.
Gods have contradictory characteristics.  Really?  I’ve never seen one, and neither has the person describing these gods.  If they had, they still would be able to find the words to accurately relate what they had seen.  I have always thought of God as I have heard of the Tao described in Asian philosophy.  I quote from the Tao Ching, Chapter 1:

 
The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao

The name that can be named is not the eternal name
The nameless is the origin of Heaven and Earth
The named is the mother of myriad things
Thus, constantly without desire, one observes its essence
Constantly with desire, one observes its manifestations
These two emerge together but differ in name
The unity is said to be the mystery
Mystery of mysteries, the door to all wonders

 
God is all of this, and more.  God is the origin of Heaven and Earth, and of the universe and beyond.  The only contradictions are those that man creates in a failed attempt to describe that which is beyond description and comprehension.

Religions are self-contradictory and inconsistent in doctrines, ideas and history.  Mr. Cline lists, “the state of religion in the world today is more consistent with the premise that they are man-made institutions.”  I heartily agree, but only because they are man-made.  I find it ill-conceived that God intended man to interpret that which God gave.  Would that not constitute heresy? 
Again we see that these are contradictions which man has created in a failed attempt to clarify God.  Can we agree that it takes a pair of solid gold ones to even think of saying, “What God really meant to say was…”  I would offer that God is all knowing.  I think God knew perfectly well the intent behind the words. 

We were not supposed to read into them, or correct them, or outright change them.  Yet, we base our faith in a Bible written by men from stories of a time controlled by men, passed down through centuries by men, written down without original text by men, and compiled into a selected collection chosen by men to be put into a Bible which men have used to excuse a multitude of sins.  I’m sorry, was there a pattern here?  Contradictions multiply the more you re-write history to suit an agenda.

“God’s share so many characteristics with humans that it has been argued that gods were made in the image of man.”  Again, I’ve never seen one and neither had they.  If they had, refer back to the issue of contradictory characteristics above.  Man loves to embellish a good yarn.

Why should the existence or desires of gods matter to us?  My goodness!  Where to begin?  Let’s keep this short and to the point.  Music, art, architecture, philosophy, government, love, peace, understanding and tolerance are all benefits of human desire for a relationship with the Almighty .  One can argue that war, death and destruction are the antithesis of this, and it is.  Man can screw up anything good.  He can make the most beautiful things ugly.  But when you gaze upon the beauty mankind has created in God’s name, the Blue Mosque, the countless Madonna and Child, the Pieta, the ceiling in the Sistine Chapel, The Creation of Adam.  The last few were just a taster Michelangelo’s works.  How many more artist and craftsmen throughout the history of all religions, not just Christian, that dedicated their works to the greater glory of their deity?  Doesn’t this speak to the need that god’s matter to us?
God’s and those that believe in them behave immorally!  I keep saying it.  I’ve never seen a god.  I can’t attest to the validity of that part of the statement.  Humans, however, can excuse any immoral behavior if they can make out that their god did it first.  I suppose it would depend on the human agenda, but let’s not jump to the conclusion that God did it first just because man says so.  Not to be indelicate, but God gave man a penis and the tools to use it, it’s just taking man an inordinate amount of time to learn to control it.

And, along with the immorality, how do we justify the evil in the world?  I have to far back on eastern philosophy again with these excerpts from Wikipedia on “Yin and Yang.” 

Yin and yang is used to describe how seemingly opposite or contrary forces are interconnected and interdependent in the natural world; and, how they give rise to each other as they interrelate to one another.  Many natural dualities (such as male and female, light and dark, high and low, hot and cold, water and fire, life and death, and so on) are thought of as physical manifestations of the yin-yang concept. Yin and yang are actually complementary, not opposing, forces, interacting to form a whole greater than either separate part; in effect, a dynamic system. Everything has both yin and yang aspects, (for instance shadow cannot exist without light). Either of the two major aspects may manifest more strongly in a particular object, depending on the criterion of the observation.  In Taoist metaphysics, good-bad distinctions and other dichotomous moral judgments are perceptual, not real; so, yin-yang is an indivisible whole.”

Good and evil then are part of an indivisible whole.  God gave us the tools to make the “moral judgments” based on our perceptions of good and evil.  If there were no evil in the world for us to perceive, would it cease to exist?  Does the tree falling make a sound if you aren’t there to hear?  Does God cease to exist because you don’t believe?  There will always be evil, and you can’t save the poor from themselves.

Faith is an unreliable guide to reality or means for acquiring knowledge.  I would offer that this statement is proves itself in the fact that if we had a reliable guide or a means for acquiring the truth (knowledge), we wouldn’t need faith!  But, unfortunately we don’t.  Faith is at best a gamble.  It is a gamble that we are capable of using the tools that God gave us.  At times we must rely solely on our ability to use those tools, that faith, to guide us on our path to the truth.

All evidence points to life being a material, natural phenomenon, not supernatural.  There is heavenly realm to strive for.  So, we are just ants plodding our way through this existence?  I think, therefore I am!  I hate to use it but…Oh ye of little faith! 

As Agent K said in the movie Men in Black, “1500 years ago, everybody knew that the Earth was the center of the universe. 500 years ago, everybody knew that the Earth was flat. And 15 minutes ago, you knew that people were alone on this planet. Imagine what you'll know tomorrow.”  For you ants out there, go gentle into that good night, dust to dust.  For you there will be nothing else, not because there might not be, but because it is what you want.  I for one want to be fully awake when I die so I can know the answer to the great mystery.

And, finally, there is really no good reason to bother believing.  I can think of no better reasons that the ones the atheists have given us.  Their reasons do not deny the existence of God, rather they act as proof there is a God!  Everything they say is true.  God made it so.  He gave us the tools to see it, to perceive it, even in the absence of proof.  The tree does make a sound in the absence of witnesses.  Just because we don’t perceive it doesn’t make it silent any more than not perceiving God is proof of non-existence. 

Faith is a reason to bother believing.  The faith that things will get better, and faith that we have been given the tools to make it so.  Faith in mankind not to push a button ending life on this planet.  Faith that we will fix what we break.  Faith that we will right what is wrong.  Sometimes faith is all there is to get us through. 

If that’s all there is, I’ll take it!  It’s better than the alternative. 

In conclusion I would say this:  If a tree falls in the forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?  God exists because man believes.  For the believer there will be a God and an afterlife.  For the non-believer, he will go into oblivion because that is where he believes he will go.  God doesn’t care how you believe, as long as it is righteous, as long as you believe.  For the most part, I don’t find these acceptable reasons not to believe.  I find these very good reasons to back away from organized religion and… find one’s own path.

Beauty: Skin Deep?

Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it. 
-- Confucius (551 BCE-479 BCE), philosopher, teacher, politician

Nowadays people are augmenting everything, breasts, cheeks (both sets), eyes, lips, and if all this isn't your thing, you can turn your skin into a canvas with a beautiful tattoo.  Adolph Hitler and his Third Reich would have loved to make a lampshade out of many large tattoos which now adorn our skin.  As a matter of fact, there are business entrepreneurs who will frame the tattooed skin of a deceased loved one, for use as a keepsake.  Other than becoming the object of some sick ticket's desire for unusual art to put above the bar in their “man cave,” what does this really accomplish?  

When I die, I'd rather my butt cheeks not be stretched on a canvas for a bunch of drunk yokels to poke fun at.  Okay, that not only didn't come out the way I intended, but I've now got this vision of stretched butt cheeks I can't unsee, and a flashback to some uncomfortable alien probing during my military years.

Tattoos aside, people undergo body augmentation for many reasons.  Sometimes the augmentation is to replace what was lost during surgery, cancer, accidents, and war.  More personal “cosmetic” reasons generally lean toward making one more attractive or defining who one is.  I can't argue with the latter, as many people need defining, or redefining, as the case might be.  However, one reason which floors me is, "My husband wanted me to do it."  Who gave him control of your body and control over what you want?  I try not to judge, but I hear this excuse and immediately think submissive wife.  The Marquis de Sade would approve.  I'm keeping quiet.

Medical reasons for augmentation stand well apart from the personal ones; people want back what God gave them.  But those personal reasons I have never understood.  My point of reference for the reasoning is my own shortfalls, which I deal with because, well, I am what I am. 

Medically, I was blessed with lousy vision.  My glasses were so thick they would fall off my face every time I looked down.  I became very adept at snatching them from mid-air before they hit the ground, so contact lenses were a godsend.  I am also slowly going bald.  But I have never considered implants, fusing, or even medications to grow hair.  Why not?  Well, would it make me something I'm not?  Would it make me a better person?  I am reminded of the joke where a man takes a gorgeous woman to a hotel room where he watches, mortified, as she slowly undresses, removing her wig, her left leg, her teeth, glass eye, well...you get the picture.  What is left is what is at hand.  What is left is what she hopes you will love.  The point is, wouldn't you rather be loved for who you are, and not the sum of your parts?  To put it another way, wouldn't you rather love a real person and not a plastic reproduction?  If you want plastic, go buy a blowup doll.  Otherwise, it is what it is.

I have never considered myself to be a handsome fellow.  Yet, I have never had a problem dating the ladies.  I found, early on, it’s all about who you are inside, how comfortable you are with… yourself.  Augmentation will not accomplish that.  Like drinking alcohol to forget, it is only a stop-gap on a journey to larger psychological issues.

What about those people who are already very handsome or beautiful and are looking to tweak their bodies a bit?  I just shake my head when I see absolutely gorgeous women who have permanently scarred their bodies with tattoos or augmented their breasts when they were already so beautifully petite and natural.  Who do you want to be more beautiful than when you’re already perfect?  I only hope the market for body art is limited to what the deceased puts in their Last Will & Testament or there will be bidding wars, “skin” wars, for ownership of expensively beautiful and desirable body art.  I love looking at some of the fabulous work some tattoo artists are capable of, I simply don't see the point of wanting it, unless it's to see how much pain you can endure but, even then, the point still escapes me.

As for your spouse wanting you to have it done, get a clue; if it takes you changing you to make them happy, to make them love you, better you should find another spouse.  How can anyone possibly see this demand for submissive behavior as love?  Not that whips, leather, and role-playing don't have their appeal but, in a relationship, if you don't love me for who I am and how I am, you don't love me.  Whips, handcuffs, and leather will make a lot happen, but probably not true love.

I love many of my friends that have had augmentations and tattoos.  I love many of my friends who smoke and are alcoholics.  Would I marry them?  Maybe, but if they don't love themselves there’s too much drama and baggage there already.  There are exceptions to any rule, even for me, but I have to look deeper than what they've done to their body.  I try to understand their reasoning, even if I might not agree.  And, if you’ve already had it done, then, what’s done is done, and there is rarely any going back to the perfect you that God gave us.  

Every mistake is a lesson to be learned, a lesson we usually discover as we get older.  Like when a woman sees that beautiful peach tattoo, covering her left breast, succumbing to gravity, and stretching toward the floor at her feet.  Not really a problem, except she's still standing upright and looking down upon it.  No big deal, except every biker in the bar, is also looking at it.  It is what it is, right?  Throw it over your shoulder, along with the sagging right breast, and move on.  Gravity gets worse or we tend to go “south” faster, as we age.  Tattoos also tend to fade and morph, like the depth of colors, or the supple peach which becomes the size of a grapefruit.  

Love of one's self.  That, for me, is what it comes down to.  Loving who you are and making the most of what God gave you.  You can't cheat God.  God makes us who we are for a reason.  It is up to us to find that reason and you won't find it with a scalpel or a tattoo needle.  If God wanted you to have more, you’d have it.  If God wanted you to have a tattoo, you’d have been born with something humorous emblazoned across your butt cheeks.  Why?  Because... I have faith in God’s endless sense of humor. 

With all this being said, I’d recommend looking deeper than the skin for what you think you need. 


Editor's Note
(Re: disclaimer cum "get out of jail free" card)


Before you go getting your panties in a bunch, it is essential to understand that this is just an opinion site and, as such, can be subjected to scrutiny by anyone with a differing opinion. It doesn't make either opinion any more right or wrong than the other. An opinion, presented in this context, is a way of inciting others to think and, hopefully, to form opinions of their own, if they haven't already done so. This is also why, occasionally, I will present an "opinion" just to stir an emotional pot. Where it may sound like I agree with the statements made, I'm more interested in getting others to consider another viewpoint. 

It is my fervent hope that we keep open and active minds when reading opinions and while engaging in peaceful and constructive discussion in an arena of mutual respect concerning those opinions put forth. After over twenty years with military intelligence, I have come to believe engaging each other in this manner and in this arena is the way we will learn tolerance and respect for differing beliefs, cultures, and viewpoints.

We all fall from grace, some more often than others; it is part of being human. God's test for us is what we learn from the experience, and what we do afterward.

Pastor Tony spent 23 years with United States Air Force Intelligence as a planner, analyst, briefer, instructor, and senior manager. He spent 17 years, following his service career, working with a world renowned Institutional Review Board helping to protect the rights of human subjects in pharmaceutical research. Ordained 1n 2013 as an "interfaith" minister, he founded the Congregation for Religious Tolerance in response to intolerance shown by Christians toward peaceful Islam. As the weapon for his war on intolerance he chose the pen, to wage his "battle" in the guise of the Congregation's official online blog, The Path, of which he is both author and editor. "The Path" offers a vehicle for commentary and guidance concerning one's own personal, spiritual, path toward peace and the final destination for us all. He currently resides in Pass Christian, Mississippi, where he volunteers as lead Chaplain and Chaplain Program Liaison, at the regional medical center.

Monday, June 24, 2013

Babies



Babies will always have the favor of God. 

Is it any wonder they are born without sin.  Their eyes gaze upon a world of wonder, and gazing back into them we can only imagine that this is what must be meant in Genesis 1:27, "So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them."  I can look in these eyes and imagine God gazing back at me.  No judgment, no expectation, well...maybe a bottle. 

We should be born with this look and never lose it.

I wish for these eyes... only wonders, and what wonders these eyes will see!  In 2022 she will be 10 years old.  In 2030 she will graduate high school, and then college in 2035.  She will be 60 years young in 2072.  With advancements in science she will be easily cruise past 88 by the year 2100.  Her children and grandchildren will see into the next century, and then look back.  "What wonderful history great-grandpa must have seen!"

Not so great as the future I see in these eyes, I think.

Cancer - How Doctors Die (Part II - My View)

Did you read Part I?  If not, what the hell?  Go back and read it!  My goodness.... Cancer - How Doctor's Die (Part 1)

In Part I we read a letter by a doctor that was also the Clinical Assistant Professor of Family Medicine at USC (University of Southern California).  Basically the letter explained that doctors, for the most part, would rather go peacefully into death than to undergo all the chemo and radiation they put the common people through.  I don’t fault this.  They call it “the practice of medicine” for a reason, and they have to practice on someone.  The fact that they don’t want to undergo their own therapies is they know it probably won’t cure them and, in fact, the cure may be more painful and debilitating than the illness.
The first thing I thought about when I read this letter was suicide.  Not trying everything you can to extend your life is suicide.  Isn’t it?  If we just come to the end of our normal life span and expire, that isn’t suicide.  If cancer takes us early, that isn’t suicide.  So why is denying treatment to postpone the inevitable suicide?  It shouldn’t be.  Nor should physician assisted termination due to extreme pain and suffering be considered such.  My God, are we really intending the dying to be so masochistic?  I think not.
But, what of the biblical view?  What does the Bible and Christianity have offer?  I went online to get some other perspectives.
Early Catholicism considered suicide as murder and a mortal sin.  But only, “in the absence of circumstances that could mitigate the sinfulness of the act.”  This clarification is important, as the early theologians recognized the difference between toughing out a rough spot in life, and having to endure pain beyond all imagination until death, or personal sacrifice for the better good.
Modern Catholicism still considers it a serious sin.  The article I read quoted 2281 and 2325 of the Catechism:
“2281 – Suicide contradicts the natural inclination of the human being to preserve and perpetuate his life.  It is gravely contrary to the just love of self.  It likewise offends love of neighbor because it unjustly breaks the ties of solidarity with family, nation, and other human societies to which we continue to have obligations.  Suicide is contrary to love for the living God.”
"2325 - Suicide is seriously contrary to justice, hope, and charity. It is forbidden by the fifth commandment."
So by all means, suffer!  It is what your neighbors want.  It is what your family wants.  It is, God bless America, what your nation wants.  And, most importantly, it is what your God wants. 
Huh?  Really?  Let’s sell tickets to offset the hospital bills so everyone can file past the window and view grandpa as he suffers unto death.  Hey, we can make it like when we were born.  Put all the dying in a room with a big window so we can view them.  God forbid they have a moment’s peace after a tough life.  We could set up a bar and have parimutuel betting on who goes out first, and the families can get a cut of the bets.  Maybe there is a reality series in this (I’d better not say that too loudly…).
Note:  In 2325, above, I question how the 5th Commandment, "Honor thy father and thy mother," is relevant here.  I think this is a misprint and should be the 6th, "thou shalt not kill."
But, does this attitude religious scholars have subjected us to run contrary to the very phrases in the Bible these scholars would use to argue for it as a sin?
“Man’s days are determined; You have decreed the number of his months and have set limits he cannot exceed.” Job 14:5
“All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.” Psalm 139:16
So, if we accept that God knows all, and God has predetermined your days here, then God must be aware of when he had planned for you to commit suicide, for the mere fact that you have accomplished the task is proof that God knew it was to be.  You cannot stay your hand because God has decreed it to be so.  Is that right?  In so far as extending the life God decreed for you through artificial means, perhaps.  God really intended for doctors to extend your life so you could endure continual pain and suffering.  Perhaps suicide in this case is just correcting man’s affront to god’s will.
Personally, I like the early Christian view of suicide, “in the absence of circumstances that could mitigate the sinfulness of the act.”  Look, your wife left you and took the kids.  Get over it, or get even.  Why kill yourself and let her win (well, sort of…she won’t get the child support). 
The point is that, in most cases, the reason we want suicide is to escape a life lesson that God intends us to learn from.  I’ve been to that point in life.  Believe me when I tell you that, when you have reached the very bottom there is nowhere left to go but up or out.  If you, on your own, choose up instead of the alternative, chances are you will never look down again.  God did this for me and my life has blossomed ever since.
My conclusion?  I would say the doctors have it right.  I think they have chosen the higher path.  I would offer this path is God’s intent, to let life follow through to its preordained conclusion barring unforeseen circumstances.  It would seem to be the Christian thing to do, the humane thing to do, and perhaps the most dignified. 


Editor's Note:  

Before you go getting your panties in a bunch, it is essential to understand that this is just an opinion site and, as such, can be subjected to scrutiny by anyone with a differing opinion.  It doesn't make either opinion any more right or wrong than the other.  An opinion, presented in this context, is a way of inciting others to think and, hopefully, to form opinions of their own, if they haven't already done so.

It is my fervent hope that we keep open and active minds when reading opinions and then engaging in peaceful, constructive, discussion and debate in an arena of mutual respect concerning the opinions put forth.  After over twenty years as a military intelligence analyst, planner, and briefer, I have come to believe engaging each other in this manner and in this arena is the way we will learn tolerance and respect for differing beliefs, cultures, and viewpoints.

We all fall from grace, some more often than others; it is part of being human.  God's test for us is what we do afterward, and what we learn from the experience.
  
Pastor Frank Anthony Villari

Pastor Tony is founder of the Congregation for Religious Tolerance and author/editor of the Congregation's official blog site, "The Path."  

The Smallest of Creatures


I was doing a photoshoot on a golf course and happened upon this opportunity.  Its hard to make out the honey bee atop the flower, mid-photo.  It isn't the greatest of shots and the size doesn't help, but it set my mind to thinking, as is usual when I am alone.  I was reminded of the final paragraph of H.G. Wells', War of the Worlds:

"But there are no bacteria in Mars, and directly these invaders arrived, directly they drank and fed, our microscopic allies began to work their overthrow. Already when I watched them they were irrevocably doomed, dying and rotting even as they went to and fro. It was inevitable. By the toll of a billion deaths man has bought his birthright of the earth, and it is his against all comers; it would still be his were the Martians ten times as mighty as they are. For neither do men live nor die in vain."
I thought of this tiny creature on the flower and of the bacteria that won our planet back from the Martian invaders in the novel.

Not often do we take a moment to consider the smallest of God's creatures. We consider them pests worthy of this consideration only in the context of ridding ourselves of them. Yet, do we ever consider the good the do, the role they play, on the earth?

Whereas we are hell bent on creating a paradise at the expense of breathable air and drinkable water, these pests actually keep the world in balance. They serve a purpose, but we have the brains. I don't see this "itty-bitty" destroying it's environment.

What purpose do you serve?
Note to the U.S. federal government: If you want us to get on board with saving the environment, eco-friendly things have to be affordable by more than just the rich. If Tata Motors can produce a two cylinder car in India and sell it for $2000, why does it have to cost over $10,000 by the time it get to us? Why does that tiny Smart car cost $20,000 or more? Why would a person trying to feed their family get on board with these products when it is easier to buy a full size Kia for less money?
And the list goes on...


Editor's Note 
(re: disclaimer cum "get out of jail free" card) 

Before you go getting your panties in a bunch, it is essential to understand that this is just an opinion site and, as such, can be subjected to scrutiny by anyone with a differing opinion. It doesn't make either opinion any more right or wrong than the other. An opinion, presented in this context, is a way of inciting others to think and, hopefully, to form opinions of their own, if they haven't already done so. This is also why, occasionally, I will present an "opinion" just to stir an emotional pot. Where it may sound like I agree with the statements made, I'm more interested in getting others to consider another viewpoint.

It is my fervent hope that we keep open and active minds when reading opinions and while engaging in peaceful, constructive, discussion in an arena of mutual respect concerning the opinions put forth. After over twenty years with military intelligence, I have come to believe engaging each other in this manner and in this arena is the way we will learn tolerance and respect for differing beliefs, cultures, and viewpoints.

We all fall from grace, some more often than others; it is part of being human. God's test for us is what we learn from the experience, and what we do afterward.
Pastor Tony spent 23 years with United States Air Force Intelligence as a planner, analyst, briefer, instructor, and senior manager. He spent 17 years, following his service career, working with an Institutional Review Board helping to protect the rights of human subjects in pharmaceutical research. Ordained 1n 2013 as an "interfaith" minister, he founded the Congregation for Religious Tolerance in response to intolerance shown by Christians toward peaceful Islam. As the weapon for his war on intolerance he chose the pen, to wage his "battle" in the guise of the Congregation's official online blog, The Path, of which he is both author and editor. "The Path" offers a vehicle for commentary and guidance concerning one's own personal, spiritual, path toward peace and the final destination for us all. He currently resides in Pass Christian, Mississippi, where he volunteers as Chaplain Program Liaison, at a regional medical center.

Sunday, June 23, 2013

Cancer - How Doctors Die (Part I)

I thought this was interesting enough to share, although a bit lengthy.  It was forwarded to me via e-mail. We all choose our path to live, but do we consider the end of the path?  Food for thought from a doctor.  I take note that they opt not to "practice" on each other, only on us.  As a "Part II" I will blog more on this, in a couple of days, after you and I have had time to digest it and consider our own views.
by Ken Murray, November 30, 2011       
Years ago, Charlie, a highly respected orthopedist and a mentor of mine, found a lump in his stomach. He had a surgeon explore the area, and the diagnosis was pancreatic cancer. This surgeon was one of the best in the country. He had even invented a new procedure for this exact cancer that could triple a patient’s five-year-survival odds–from 5 percent to 15 percent–albeit with a poor quality of life. Charlie was uninterested. He went home the next day, closed his practice, and never set foot in a hospital again. He focused on spending time with family and feeling as good as possible. Several months later, he died at home. He got no chemotherapy, radiation, or surgical treatment. Medicare didn’t spend much on him.
It’s not a frequent topic of discussion, but doctors die, too. And they don’t die like the rest of us. What’s unusual about them is not how much treatment they get compared to most Americans, but how little. For all the time they spend fending off the deaths of others, they tend to be fairly serene when faced with death themselves. They know exactly what is going to happen, they know the choices, and they generally have access to any sort of medical care they could want. But they go gently.
Of course, doctors don’t want to die; they want to live. But they know enough about modern medicine to know its limits. And they know enough about death to know what all people fear most: dying in pain, and dying alone. They’ve talked about this with their families. They want to be sure, when the time comes, that no heroic measures will happen–that they will never experience, during their last moments on earth, someone breaking their ribs in an attempt to resuscitate them with CPR (that’s what happens if CPR is done right).
Almost all medical professionals have seen what we call “futile care” being performed on people. That’s when doctors bring the cutting edge of technology to bear on a grievously ill person near the end of life. The patient will get cut open, perforated with tubes, hooked up to machines, and assaulted with drugs. All of this occurs in the Intensive Care Unit at a cost of tens of thousands of dollars a day. What it buys is misery we would not inflict on a terrorist. I cannot count the number of times fellow physicians have told me, in words that vary only slightly, “Promise me if you find me like this that you’ll kill me.” They mean it. Some medical personnel wear medallions stamped “NO CODE” to tell physicians not to perform CPR on them. I have even seen it as a tattoo.
To administer medical care that makes people suffer is anguishing. Physicians are trained to gather information without revealing any of their own feelings, but in private, among fellow doctors, they’ll vent. “How can anyone do that to their family members?” they’ll ask. I suspect it’s one reason physicians have higher rates of alcohol abuse and depression than professionals in most other fields. I know it’s one reason I stopped participating in hospital care for the last 10 years of my practice.
How has it come to this–that doctors administer so much care that they wouldn’t want for themselves? The simple, or not-so-simple, answer is this: patients, doctors, and the system.
To see how patients play a role, imagine a scenario in which someone has lost consciousness and been admitted to an emergency room. As is so often the case, no one has made a plan for this situation, and shocked and scared family members find themselves caught up in a maze of choices. They’re overwhelmed. When doctors ask if they want “everything” done, they answer yes. Then the nightmare begins. Sometimes, a family really means “do everything,” but often they just mean “do everything that’s reasonable.” The problem is that they may not know what’s reasonable, nor, in their confusion and sorrow, will they ask about it or hear what a physician may be telling them. For their part, doctors told to do “everything” will do it, whether it is reasonable or not.
The above scenario is a common one. Feeding into the problem are unrealistic expectations of what doctors can accomplish. Many people think of CPR as a reliable lifesaver when, in fact, the results are usually poor. I’ve had hundreds of people brought to me in the emergency room after getting CPR. Exactly one, a healthy man who’d had no heart troubles (for those who want specifics, he had a “tension pneumothorax”), walked out of the hospital. If a patient suffers from severe illness, old age, or a terminal disease, the odds of a good outcome from CPR are infinitesimal, while the odds of suffering are overwhelming. Poor knowledge and misguided expectations lead to a lot of bad decisions.
But of course it’s not just patients making these things happen. Doctors play an enabling role, too. The trouble is that even doctors who hate to administer futile care must find a way to address the wishes of patients and families. Imagine, once again, the emergency room with those grieving, possibly hysterical, family members. They do not know the doctor. Establishing trust and confidence under such circumstances is a very delicate thing. People are prepared to think the doctor is acting out of base motives, trying to save time, or money, or effort, especially if the doctor is advising against further treatment.
Some doctors are stronger communicators than others, and some doctors are more adamant, but the pressures they all face are similar. When I faced circumstances involving end-of-life choices, I adopted the approach of laying out only the options that I thought were reasonable (as I would in any situation) as early in the process as possible. When patients or families brought up unreasonable choices, I would discuss the issue in layman’s terms that portrayed the downsides clearly. If patients or families still insisted on treatments I considered pointless or harmful, I would offer to transfer their care to another doctor or hospital.
Should I have been more forceful at times? I know that some of those transfers still haunt me. One of the patients of whom I was most fond was an attorney from a famous political family. She had severe diabetes and terrible circulation, and, at one point, she developed a painful sore on her foot. Knowing the hazards of hospitals, I did everything I could to keep her from resorting to surgery. Still, she sought out outside experts with whom I had no relationship. Not knowing as much about her as I did, they decided to perform bypass surgery on her chronically clogged blood vessels in both legs. This didn’t restore her circulation, and the surgical wounds wouldn’t heal. Her feet became gangrenous, and she endured bilateral leg amputations. Two weeks later, in the famous medical center in which all this had occurred, she died.
It’s easy to find fault with both doctors and patients in such stories, but in many ways all the parties are simply victims of a larger system that encourages excessive treatment. In some unfortunate cases, doctors use the fee-for-service model to do everything they can, no matter how pointless, to make money. More commonly, though, doctors are fearful of litigation and do whatever they’re asked, with little feedback, to avoid getting in trouble.
Even when the right preparations have been made, the system can still swallow people up. One of my patients was a man named Jack, a 78-year-old who had been ill for years and undergone about 15 major surgical procedures. He explained to me that he never, under any circumstances, wanted to be placed on life support machines again. One Saturday, however, Jack suffered a massive stroke and got admitted to the emergency room unconscious, without his wife. Doctors did everything possible to resuscitate him and put him on life support in the ICU. This was Jack’s worst nightmare. When I arrived at the hospital and took over Jack’s care, I spoke to his wife and to hospital staff, bringing in my office notes with his care preferences. Then I turned off the life support machines and sat with him. He died two hours later.
Even with all his wishes documented, Jack hadn’t died as he’d hoped. The system had intervened. One of the nurses, I later found out, even reported my unplugging of Jack to the authorities as a possible homicide. Nothing came of it, of course; Jack’s wishes had been spelled out explicitly, and he’d left the paperwork to prove it. But the prospect of a police investigation is terrifying for any physician. I could far more easily have left Jack on life support against his stated wishes, prolonging his life, and his suffering, a few more weeks. I would even have made a little more money, and Medicare would have ended up with an additional $500,000 bill. It’s no wonder many doctors err on the side of overtreatment.
But doctors still don’t over-treat themselves. They see the consequences of this constantly. Almost anyone can find a way to die in peace at home, and pain can be managed better than ever. Hospice care, which focuses on providing terminally ill patients with comfort and dignity rather than on futile cures, provides most people with much better final days. Amazingly, studies have found that people placed in hospice care often live longer than people with the same disease who are seeking active cures. I was struck to hear on the radio recently that the famous reporter Tom Wicker had “died peacefully at home, surrounded by his family.” Such stories are, thankfully, increasingly common.
Several years ago, my older cousin Torch (born at home by the light of a flashlight–or torch) had a seizure that turned out to be the result of lung cancer that had gone to his brain. I arranged for him to see various specialists, and we learned that with aggressive treatment of his condition, including three to five hospital visits a week for chemotherapy, he would live perhaps four months. Ultimately, Torch decided against any treatment and simply took pills for brain swelling. He moved in with me.
We spent the next eight months doing a bunch of things that he enjoyed, having fun together like we hadn’t had in decades. We went to Disneyland, his first time. We’d hang out at home. Torch was a sports nut, and he was very happy to watch sports and eat my cooking. He even gained a bit of weight, eating his favorite foods rather than hospital foods. He had no serious pain, and he remained high-spirited. One day, he didn’t wake up. He spent the next three days in a coma-like sleep and then died. The cost of his medical care for those eight months, for the one drug he was taking, was about $20.
Torch was no doctor, but he knew he wanted a life of quality, not just quantity. Don’t most of us? If there is a state of the art of end-of-life care, it is this: death with dignity. As for me, my physician has my choices. They were easy to make, as they are for most physicians. There will be no heroics, and I will go gentle into that good night. Like my mentor Charlie. Like my cousin Torch. Like my fellow doctors.
Ken Murray, MD, is Clinical Assistant Professor of Family Medicine at USC.
Note:  Be sure to read the follow-up post, How Doctors Die - (Part 2: My View)


Editor's Note:  

Before you go getting your panties in a bunch, it is essential to understand that this is just an opinion site and, as such, can be subjected to scrutiny by anyone with a differing opinion.  It doesn't make either opinion any more right or wrong than the other.  An opinion, presented in this context, is a way of inciting others to think and, hopefully, to form opinions of their own, if they haven't already done so.

It is my fervent hope that we keep open and active minds when reading opinions and then engaging in peaceful, constructive, discussion and debate in an arena of mutual respect concerning the opinions put forth.  After over twenty years as a military intelligence analyst, planner, and briefer, I have come to believe engaging each other in this manner and in this arena is the way we will learn tolerance and respect for differing beliefs, cultures, and viewpoints.

We all fall from grace, some more often than others; it is part of being human.  God's test for us is what we do afterward, and what we learn from the experience.
  
Pastor Frank Anthony Villari

Pastor Tony is founder of the Congregation for Religious Tolerance and author/editor of the Congregation's official blog site, "The Path."